Tag: motherhood

It’s a different kind of Christmas this year.  There are 5 stockings hung, the house is absent one husband and has gained one puppy.  Rachel’s health is continuing to decline on a continual basis and my other three kids are aware of some of the harsh realities of our life, more than last year.  Rachel’s speech is becoming harder to understand and she is mostly in a wheelchair or on the floor crawling but I have her walk to the bathroom and to her wheelchair on the front porch.  Often when she is in an angry mood she gets upset easily and screams like a toddler when her needs aren’t immediately met, other times she will sit content for hours listening to her favorite shows and movies. Her decline has been hard for me because I have always liked to get out of the house and DO stuff.  We’ve spent more time at home this past year than we have ever done before and I find it depressing.  I’ve avoided the thought of obtaining a wheelchair van because I’m able to lift her as she still has some lower body strength (although it is considerably weaker since this time last(read the rest)