Tag: challenge

I got up early today because I had a dentist appointment. On my first night or two of this 30 day sugar free challenge I bought myself a pack of gum to help with the cravings and I ended up losing a small piece of one of my molars. I was lucky and found out today that I do not need a root canal. 2 cups of coffee before the dentist. Gluten free mega pile of nachos for an early (11am) lunch. A pickle and a bunch of water this afternoon. I came to the realization that I can keep this up for the rest of my life. I feel less hungry than I usually do (I am normally hungry allllll of the time. Not real, stomach growling hunger, just the constant desire to stuff my face). I’m a month away from celebrating 2 years of veganism, I can do this sugar free thing for a long time. I hope this way of life helps me to lose weight, I will be pretty much devastated if this isn’t the one thing that helps me get past my constant struggle with weight. Being at my friends house is usually hard for(read the rest)

Day 3 was a bit easier. Boston had an orthodontist appointment on the other side of the city so I was distracted from my morning hunger. I had a banana and coffee for breakfast. After he was done with his appointment we went to Safeway where they had pints of strawberries 3 for $5. We went to target afterwards to pickup a few more things for Julie’s birthday (3/29). I had quinoa (and strawberries) for lunch which tasted unbelievably salty. I have had this particular quinoa many times since going vegan nearly 2 years ago but it never tasted that salty. I think I might have been dehydrated despite chugging water. Part of the detoxification process, maybe? I was really tired before going to amazon so I took a nap. I feel guilty napping when my kids are home but this challenge is being done for me AND for them. I had chips and hummus for dinner with sriracha mixed in. It tasted a lot like the curry hummus which I really like but can’t often find in the area I live in. I should have had cucumber instead of chips, saving my last cucumber for Thursday’s lunch. I drank(read the rest)

begin again after child dies

It has been ten weeks since Rachel died and it has been pretty rough. So easy to fall apart and just sit with the grief.  Living with the grief can easily kill a person.  It’s not just the fact that she is dead, I’m only now starting to deal with the disease and what it did to her.  The disease took away so much from her over 10 years and I was too busy being a Mom to process the disease.  Being a Mom without Rachel takes up way less time now so being sad and thinking about things, being left with my own thoughts, can bring me to the edge. I’ve been struggling with good days and bad. I’ve stopped talking to just about everyone I know.  Left with my own thoughts. The Colorado summer sun arrived and my ability to continue walking and get my steps in got really hard last week.  So… I joined Planet Fitness and have been going there everyday since.  I have tried tanning twice and my white parts are red.  I don’t think tanning is for me. Last week I gave myself 14 days.  If I couldn’t make a noticeable improvement within myself(read the rest)