Tag: challenge

I got up early today because I had a dentist appointment. On my first night or two of this 30 day sugar free challenge I bought myself a pack of gum to help with the cravings and I ended up losing a small piece of one of my molars. I was lucky and found out today that I do not need a root canal.

2 cups of coffee before the dentist. Gluten free mega pile of nachos for an early (11am) lunch. A pickle and a bunch of water this afternoon.

I came to the realization that I can keep this up for the rest of my life. I feel less hungry than I usually do (I am normally hungry allllll of the time. Not real, stomach growling hunger, just the constant desire to stuff my face). I’m a month away from celebrating 2 years of veganism, I can do this sugar free thing for a long time. I hope this way of life helps me to lose weight, I will be pretty much devastated if this isn’t the one thing that helps me get past my constant struggle with weight.

Being at my friends house is usually hard for me because she lives about 8,000 above sea level and I live 5,000 feet above sea level. I noticed after the first day that my body was able to breathe easier up there than it ever has. Is that related to losing a few pounds or breaking the hold that sugar has on me? I don’t know. It might be unrelated to both.

This was dinner. 2 vegan hot dogs and 2 mandarin oranges. Spicy mustard instead of sugary ketchup. I miss ketchup.

Sleep: 5 hours 15 minutes

Weight: I didn’t weigh again. Bloat blows.

Steps: 15,617

Day 3 was a bit easier. Boston had an orthodontist appointment on the other side of the city so I was distracted from my morning hunger. I had a banana and coffee for breakfast. After he was done with his appointment we went to Safeway where they had pints of strawberries 3 for $5. We went to target afterwards to pickup a few more things for Julie’s birthday (3/29). I had quinoa (and strawberries) for lunch which tasted unbelievably salty. I have had this particular quinoa many times since going vegan nearly 2 years ago but it never tasted that salty. I think I might have been dehydrated despite chugging water. Part of the detoxification process, maybe? I was really tired before going to amazon so I took a nap.

I feel guilty napping when my kids are home but this challenge is being done for me AND for them.

I had chips and hummus for dinner with sriracha mixed in. It tasted a lot like the curry hummus which I really like but can’t often find in the area I live in. I should have had cucumber instead of chips, saving my last cucumber for Thursday’s lunch.

I drank a ton of water in both water and seltzer water form. I spent the best part of 4 hours picking up boxes and envelopes and lifting them into the sort slides at Amazon. I was sweating and my back was killing me at the end. Some of those boxes are super heavy so I got an exceptional workout today. I did not feel like my blood sugar was low at Amazon (no dizziness) and was less sluggish than on Tuesday.

Sleep: 6 hours 35 minutes

Weight: Down 2 pounds (my stomach seems to be less fat lol)

Steps: 19,009

begin again after child dies

It has been ten weeks since Rachel died and it has been pretty rough. So easy to fall apart and just sit with the grief.  Living with the grief can easily kill a person.  It’s not just the fact that she is dead, I’m only now starting to deal with the disease and what it did to her.  The disease took away so much from her over 10 years and I was too busy being a Mom to process the disease.  Being a Mom without Rachel takes up way less time now so being sad and thinking about things, being left with my own thoughts, can bring me to the edge.

I’ve been struggling with good days and bad. I’ve stopped talking to just about everyone I know.  Left with my own thoughts.

The Colorado summer sun arrived and my ability to continue walking and get my steps in got really hard last week.  So… I joined Planet Fitness and have been going there everyday since.  I have tried tanning twice and my white parts are red.  I don’t think tanning is for me.

Last week I gave myself 14 days.  If I couldn’t make a noticeable improvement within myself, I would call a therapist.  I would rather LIVE my LIFE than have to talk to someone who just won’t get what I’ve been through.  So here I am, killing it. Mostly. #betterthanagriefgroup

The kids are keeping up with their fitbit steps and are starting to visit the library (solo) on a daily basis so I can get some work done.  Boston is in Boston for several days.  Next weekend London is spending his first weekend with his father and I am taking Julie camping so we can help our friends build their tiny home.

The featured picture in this post is to announce that the kids and I are saving up to fly to London this fall. Norwegian is drastically discounting Denver to Gatwick direct and we’re all working towards saving up.  London!!!! It is something Rachel wanted to do but wasn’t in the cards with finances, divorce, timing and her decline.