(Photo above: My 3 living children Geocaching in Denver (2017) Above:  Myself and 4 kiddos dressed up at a car show for Halloween in 2016. Hola! My name is Kat Wasabi and I am a website manager (content / creative) for customers all over the United States with Geek Media. My name really really is Kathryn Wasabi, I had it legally changed from Kathryn Vontungeln when my divorce was finaly My oldest child, Rachel, died at age 16 from a rare brain disease called Juvenile Batten Disease. My 3 other children are totally (as far as I know) healthy and awesome. Halloween is our favorite holiday! <3 In my spare time, I like to take my kids on road trips and go 4-wheeling.  I have also helped raise tens of thousands of dollars for Juvenile Batten Disease Research. I am a proud vegan and have converted my children. Vegan for the animals! We live just outside of Denver, Colorado with Mittens the cat.

I’m tired of organizing things. I’ve had it with putting events together and people together. The last minute no’s. The canceling. All of it. This has been a long time coming and I’ve quit. No more playgroup organizing. No more meet-up organizing. No more Mom’s Night Out organizing. NO MORE. I guess it is my fault for doing it for this long. I’ve haven’t really complained too much about it but the last few months have sent me to the edge and pushed me over it. If people want to get together and I’m available, I’ll go. I am not going to be the one to pick the place, invite the people, remind the people and get something together. If people don’t want to get together or get out of the house, boo hoo. I’m supposed to leave in an hour for a Mom’s Night Out but everyone cancelled on me. Oh well. I’m just as happy staying home. I’m done and this isn’t said lightly.

How many days has the tooth saga been going on? I went to the dentist yesterday and she gave me this clove (?) like treament. Essentially flushed the “socket” out with saline and stuffed the socket full of this stuff. I didn’t really feel that much relief. Today I am still in a lot of pain so I am going back this afternoon. I really feel good about the dentist, I think I am just having a rough patch of bad luck in the dental department. Took Rachel to dance this morning. Actually, I took everyone. I dragged everyone’s ass (big and little) out of the house and spent the morning chasing down tan tap shoes. I went to the only place I knew of in Hanover but found that they weren’t open. The dance studio next door was really great and cracked open the phone book and gave me the name of a dance wear shop in Sciuate. I called them to find out they open at 930 and I immediately hauled the van (family and all) into the depths of scituate. SCORE! They had them. $22.00 – about $9 less than Rachel’s dance school wanted for them (woohoo). We wound up being 15 minutes late to dance, but she was prepared. I hate that I dropped the ball with her shoes but there was little I could do with all of the mouth pain I have been having, her tap shoes weren’t such a huge priority. Dance is expensive. I’m not poor, but I really don’t think I am “rich” enough to keep up with dance. The leotard, skirt, tights, ballet shoes and tap shoes, plus the course run me well over $225 for the semsester. I owe another $140 in a couple of months, and another $140 in the spring. If we have a ton of kids, dance is something that definitely won’t be in the cards. If she reallllly likes dance, I will stick her to it (no matter what)… but if she isn’t in love with it, I am going to give swimming (and diving?) a chance. She is also enrolled in soccer on Saturday afternoons (I am heading there after the dentist). I really want her to stick with soccer. Being part of an athletic team from a young age will give her a very competitive advantage. The three sports I am going to start her out in young are dance, soccer, swim and possibly martial arts. I think martial art training really helps to form a disciplined child (with the parents involvement, of course). Lot’s of water to go under the bridge before any decisions are made (by Rachel, of course). It will be interesting to see what activities interest her and what she wants to stick with. My baby is growing up and I couldn’t be happier. Lot’s of parents are sad when their children start to branch out a bit. If Rachel *wasn’t* branching out, I would be worried. She is such a cool kid. We are meant to go to the Big E tomorrow with some girls from Mommaville. I’m pretty sure we are going, and I am pretty sure that John can’t go. We’ll see.

Owning your own business can be sort of exciting. People generally seem envious when I tell them that I work from home, and that I am not destitute. Working from home was my only option, I don’t work so well for other people (although I do work well WITH other people) and daycare was never in my vocabulary for my children. I like many aspects about working at home, it is quite difficult… trying to juggle a baby, a preschooler, activities, customers, work, deadlines… I am dealing with a situation that doesn’t arise very often, I have been very lucky since doing my own thing. One of my customers bought a script to integrate into his website as this prewritten code was going to cut a lot of time and money out of the project. Great, right? After paying for the script and installing it, several bugs came to light. Initially, my level of expertise was questioned until the error I was receiving, I duplicated on their test site. :upset A quick apology was made and soon I was sent ammended code. I emailed my contact person on the 20th of last month to fix a second bug. I gave him the requested ftp information and have had a very slow time getting a reply. I was told my ftp info was incorrect, it asbolutely was 100% correct. I’m still waiting to hear and I finally had to send a nasty email. I hate when people push me that way. I’ve always been honest and laid back about business. If you go over your data limit, no biggie. If you go over next month, we’ll talk about upgrading. You want some minor changes to your site? I will generally do it for free (depending on the complexity). I just want this rectified right NOW. COHeather (if you’re reading this)… this is the SAME script as I was whining about a month ago. I hate crappy customer support.

Owning your own business can be sort of exciting. People generally seem envious when I tell them that I work from home, and that I am not destitute. Working from home was my only option, I don’t work so well for other people (although I do work well WITH other people) and daycare was never in my vocabulary for my children. I like many aspects about working at home, it is quite difficult… trying to juggle a baby, a preschooler, activities, customers, work, deadlines… I am dealing with a situation that doesn’t arise very often, I have been very lucky since doing my own thing. One of my customers bought a script to integrate into his website as this prewritten code was going to cut a lot of time and money out of the project. Great, right? After paying for the script and installing it, several bugs came to light. Initially, my level of expertise was questioned until the error I was receiving, I duplicated on their test site. :upset A quick apology was made and soon I was sent ammended code. I emailed my contact person on the 20th of last month to fix a second bug. I gave him the requested ftp information and have had a very slow time getting a reply. I was told my ftp info was incorrect, it asbolutely was 100% correct. I’m still waiting to hear and I finally had to send a nasty email. I hate when people push me that way. I’ve always been honest and laid back about business. If you go over your data limit, no biggie. If you go over next month, we’ll talk about upgrading. You want some minor changes to your site? I will generally do it for free (depending on the complexity). I just want this rectified right NOW. COHeather (if you’re reading this)… this is the SAME script as I was whining about a month ago. I hate crappy customer support.

I can’t think of a title for this blog entry. There is a lot going on in my life so I figure I’ll just talk about it. I’m still in a pretty substantial amount of pain from having my tooth out yesterday. The amount of blood was unreal. As I was sitting in the dentists chair, I was feeling about how I was having an out of body experience. It was really bad and as it was happening I couldn’t believe it was happening. As horrible as this is, there was only thought that I could think of to help me get through it. About 2 years ago, Rachel suffered second degree burns. At the hospital, there was a point where they had me hold her down so they could scrape off her skin. She was SCREAMING. Unless your child has been in that sort of pain, it is a sound that you simply cannot describe to another parent. While having my tooth pulled (it took at least 10 minutes), all I could think about was that night while I was holding my baby down… and if she could get through that, I could get through this. 🙁 I have such a brave daughter. I’m still working on the errors with the new server that MichiganMommas is having. I proved to myself yesterday that it wasn’t a fault of the PHP code or the database transfer, but it’s something wrong with the new box. Either mySQL was poorly compiled, or it is a hardware failure. I had the data center perform some tweaks to the server, so we’ll see if that fixed it. If not, we have to pursue hardware failure of some sort. Hopefully it is something simple like a bad stick of ram. Intermitten errors suck. John took Rachel to school this morning, I got up late. It was 915 when I dragged my ass out of bed and slowly creeped into the living room. I could hear the TV was on and was scared to death that John dropped the ball again and hadn’t taken her to school yet. Much to my suprise, John was sitting with Julie for a few minutes and he had taken Rachel to school. He didn’t dress her for the warm weather but she was on-time and her hair was done. There really isn’t much more I could ask for, right? 🙂 I picked her up at 3pm and she had a great day. I took her to Dunkies on the way home and asked her if she wanted a donut. “Yes! Please!” She then informed me that the donut should be “no sprinkles’ and it should have “nilla” inside. My baby asked for her first Boston Creme. How proud am I?!?!? Our business is going really well. We get calls everyday and John is making much more working for us than he ever would have working retail. I actually splurged and got us the movie subscription from blockbuster as we finally have to the time together to watch movies. Thats probably my favorite family pasttime is renting a movie and sharing a bowl of popcorn. I didn’t sign up for an online movie service because, quite frankly, I think people stay home too much. I think things that force me to get out of the house. I love preschool days because it makes me take a shower and leave the house early. I am the most active and I accomplish the most on days where I am out of the house early. Any excuse or reason to get out of the house, is something that is good for my life. There are other things that I am dealing with that I am really not comfortable sharing on a public forum but I will say that the more I think about my life, the more I come up with real reasons for why things are the way they are. I love my children. I love my husband. I love my business. I love renting movies and sharing a bowl of Pop Secret popcorn. I love my minivan and iced coffee. Outside of those things, there is much to be desired with the small details. I will sort them out. I won’t give myself a choice.

I can’t think of a title for this blog entry. There is a lot going on in my life so I figure I’ll just talk about it. I’m still in a pretty substantial amount of pain from having my tooth out yesterday. The amount of blood was unreal. As I was sitting in the dentists chair, I was feeling about how I was having an out of body experience. It was really bad and as it was happening I couldn’t believe it was happening. As horrible as this is, there was only thought that I could think of to help me get through it. About 2 years ago, Rachel suffered second degree burns. At the hospital, there was a point where they had me hold her down so they could scrape off her skin. She was SCREAMING. Unless your child has been in that sort of pain, it is a sound that you simply cannot describe to another parent. While having my tooth pulled (it took at least 10 minutes), all I could think about was that night while I was holding my baby down… and if she could get through that, I could get through this. 🙁 I have such a brave daughter. I’m still working on the errors with the new server that MichiganMommas is having. I proved to myself yesterday that it wasn’t a fault of the PHP code or the database transfer, but it’s something wrong with the new box. Either mySQL was poorly compiled, or it is a hardware failure. I had the data center perform some tweaks to the server, so we’ll see if that fixed it. If not, we have to pursue hardware failure of some sort. Hopefully it is something simple like a bad stick of ram. Intermitten errors suck. John took Rachel to school this morning, I got up late. It was 915 when I dragged my ass out of bed and slowly creeped into the living room. I could hear the TV was on and was scared to death that John dropped the ball again and hadn’t taken her to school yet. Much to my suprise, John was sitting with Julie for a few minutes and he had taken Rachel to school. He didn’t dress her for the warm weather but she was on-time and her hair was done. There really isn’t much more I could ask for, right? 🙂 I picked her up at 3pm and she had a great day. I took her to Dunkies on the way home and asked her if she wanted a donut. “Yes! Please!” She then informed me that the donut should be “no sprinkles’ and it should have “nilla” inside. My baby asked for her first Boston Creme. How proud am I?!?!? Our business is going really well. We get calls everyday and John is making much more working for us than he ever would have working retail. I actually splurged and got us the movie subscription from blockbuster as we finally have to the time together to watch movies. Thats probably my favorite family pasttime is renting a movie and sharing a bowl of popcorn. I didn’t sign up for an online movie service because, quite frankly, I think people stay home too much. I think things that force me to get out of the house. I love preschool days because it makes me take a shower and leave the house early. I am the most active and I accomplish the most on days where I am out of the house early. Any excuse or reason to get out of the house, is something that is good for my life. There are other things that I am dealing with that I am really not comfortable sharing on a public forum but I will say that the more I think about my life, the more I come up with real reasons for why things are the way they are. I love my children. I love my husband. I love my business. I love renting movies and sharing a bowl of Pop Secret popcorn. I love my minivan and iced coffee. Outside of those things, there is much to be desired with the small details. I will sort them out. I won’t give myself a choice.

Still dealing with the horrible tooth pain but now I am havinig my stomach ulcer act up on a very regular basis. I’m not doing very well with it. John is in Boston all day today, Rachel is in school until 3pm and Julie is at home with me (napping at the moment). It is so hard to grasp that at 26 I have had so many health issues this year. Really, I am a healthy woman…. but these problems I am dealing with are really affecting my life. John has been wonderful in all of this, helping me with the girls. If he were still working for Staples, I don’t know how I could have been able to cope. I need to call the dentist to make my appointment for an extraction. I’m skeered but I have it in my head that I need to think of the horrific time in Russia and how miniscule the extraction will be in comparison and that there are thousands of people on this earth who who trade their problems with my one little, stupid, miniscule extraction.

This exposed nerve in my mouth is beyond painful. There is a level of pain with is annoying, there is painful pain…. and then there is: TOOTH PAIN I am having it pulled on Monday, I have to find someone to do it. Our insurance ran out the day John quit staples, we got that letter in the mail yesterday as I was about to hop in the bug and drive to the emergency room. Don’t get me started on the SHIT dental system in the US. We have the best equipment, technology and skilled Dentists… but who can afford it? It’s approximately $1200 out-of-pocket for a root canal and only $125 for an extraction. Pull it!

I’ve been writing this for quite some time. I’m pulling out all of my locations and putting everything into this blog. I’ll have it done within a few weeks.

You are the lights of my life. If tomorrow is my dying day, I will forever have a smile on my face for knowing that I gave both of you life. Rachel, you have the heart of a true saint. You always want to please, you want to befriend the world (even your mother when I don’t deserve your love). Julie, I don’t know you quite that well yet but I do believe that your life will be filled with spunk, spirit and art. For some reason you remind me of parts of myself I never knew existed. You are each others best friends for life. Words can not express the depth of my connection to the two of you. I love you.

You are the lights of my life. If tomorrow is my dying day, I will forever have a smile on my face for knowing that I gave both of you life. Rachel, you have the heart of a true saint. You always want to please, you want to befriend the world (even your mother when I don’t deserve your love). Julie, I don’t know you quite that well yet but I do believe that your life will be filled with spunk, spirit and art. For some reason you remind me of parts of myself I never knew existed. You are each others best friends for life. Words can not express the depth of my connection to the two of you. I love you.

Rest in peace, beautiful angel. My heart aches for all of the parents who have had to kiss their children as their last breath left, saying goodbye. I can’t imagine their pain.

She’s beautiful!

I read tonight that Baby Allie won’t be with us much longer. I cried and got Julie out of her crib and fed her a bottle. Her hands were cold. I’m sick over this whole thing. I can’t believe that there is a god in the sky when young children are victims to senseless violence, to senseless illness. I am so sad. I want to hold her mom in my arms and never let go. I can’t imagine being her mom and having to let go. www.scotthousehold.com

Today was a really long day. Julie woke up 6 times through the night. I am now fully convinced that her being high needs is directly related to how much attention we give her. John held her chest to chest, singing to her and stroking her for about 8 hours yesterday. I think she woke up BECAUSE of the extra attention he gave her. She was super high needs today. My head hurts.

Had a pretty good day today. I’ve been working on finishing up several projects and sites that seem to be lagging. My Mom took Rachel for a few hours today as Chris and the family are up from CT. Rachel had a great day playing with their kiddos and we went on an hour long drive when John finally got home from working for a customer in the next town over. I’m tired but we did some damage to the house cleaning task. (Woohoo). I have always wondered, will there ever come a day when I will be too old to say “woo-hoo?” I hope not.

It’s going great for us! We have had an incredible response with the Good Geeks, I am really excited about what the future holds. John and the girls are renting movies and buying pizza and we are going to have a late night movie fest while I get more work done.

After being treated like crap and paid even worse, John has finally bit the bullet and quit. He will finally be able to spend some desparately needed time with his girls and pursue our dreams full-time. The von Tungeln household is a celebratin’ tonight! (We’re both working feverishly).

Today. Bleh. I’m in the midst of organizing a care package of special formula for an online friend who has a son that suffers from Craniosynostosis ( www.craniokids.org ) and while I am in the grocery store sorting that out, Julie gets stung by a bee. The manager was less than helpful, needless to say I wasn’t too happy. Thankfully, she didn’t have an allergic reaction.

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